Tuesday, May 25, 2010

On a Happier note..

My sister is getting married!!

Me and my sister Angie

I can't even begin tell you how happy I am about this. She is one of the most amazing people on this earth and she deserves all the happiness in the world. She's been through a lot of hard times and has held her head up through it all. I honestly don't think that there is a person who knows her who doesn't love her.

The guy she is marrying is seriously one of the best guys ever.

I'm so grateful for these happy times that help to lessen the pain of the hard times.

And Happy Birthday Dad. I miss you.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Let me switch gears

Hopefully you don't get whiplash from the 180 that I'm about to do. Going from the hilarity that is Mr. Gervais to this.

I have a question for you. And no it's not just to get comments. It's something that I genuinely want to know.

It has to do with addiction. The three of you who are regular readers have probably figured out that I deal with addicts in my life.

And if you have any experience with this you know how horrible addiction is.

I also know that, at least in my family, it's not openly talked about very often. If it is I often feel like I'm the one who is pushing to talk about it. And when we do talk that's all it seems to be is talk. And that talk just goes around in circles. Never ending, helpless circles.

I feel really, really alone in this situation. I actually went and spoke with a friend who I knew had a similar experience to mine and it was such an incredible relief to know that I am not alone in my feelings, my reactions, in my pain and anger.

But I guess I need more. More advice. More validation. More understanding.

So the question I pose to you is this,

Have you ever had someone you loved dearly who has struggled with addiction?

Have you, yourself, ever struggled with addiction? Of any kind. Addiction is addiction.

In fact I have taken a good hard look at myself (because I believe I carry an addictive gene in my makeup) and I guess my "drug of choice" is soda, sugar and food in general. I'm not perfect.

In fact I feel like a complete hypocrite most days.

Fortunately or Unfortunately however you choose to look at it I am able to function with my addiction. Does that make it better or worse?

The addiction that is tearing into my family has to do with drugs.

Meth, prescription pain killers, Heroine and possibly other shtuff.

I am looking into going to Al-Anon meetings to get more help. (Maybe I should look into some OA meetings as well.)


I'm going to make it so that you can post anonymously if you wish because I know how hard it is to talk publicly about stuff like this. Or you can email me if you want. My email is in my profile.

There you have it.

Sorry to be so abrupt. Hope your neck isn't hurting too badly.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

"No I don't want to smell your fake tan!!"

Ricky Gervais

Oh how this man cracks me up. I LOVED him in Ghost Town.


If you want to see him in action in that film.

I SO wish that they had the full clip of when they are wheeling him into surgery.

I had a hard time catching my breath I
was laughing so hard during that scene.

In fact I had to go back and watch it again
and again so that I could hear all of it
because I was laughing so hard.

And now there's going to be a new show on FX with him in it??

That just made my night.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Do you want to help someone out and be entertained at the same time???

Then check this out....
This fundraiser is for my sister-in-law's little sister.
(Click on the picture to make it bigger.)

So if you live in Utah County and are looking for a
great Family Home Evening idea for this Monday night,
head out to this.

Natalie and Mollie from DWTS, Afterglow and
Odyssey Dance Theater?

Should be good, good times.

And it's for an awesome cause.

If you want to know more about Tiffanie go

Also if you feel so inclined to spread the word about this benefit
that would be super cool.

I lost my sister. I don't want my sister-in-law to lose hers.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

A few more photos

I took McKenna out the other day for a photo shoot in her high kicks. If you want to see more head over to my Photog Blog.

BTW...I just got rid of one site that was seriously upping my numbers on my reader. So that number didn't kill me off.