Friday, February 11, 2011

In which I struggle

Today I wrote love on my arm for TWLOHA.

It was surprisingly difficult.

It made my heart ache.

Because last year on the day that I wrote love on my arm I lost my sister.

So I struggle today....and tomorrow (and always) for tomorrow it will be a year.

I love you Pam.

My love for you is written on my arm today

and in my heart always.

13 comments:

sisterwendy said...

Nothing cures the loss of a sibling/parent. Time does makes it a little bit easier. I lost two brothers and my dad, so I can understand. You'll always carry them in your heart. Thank goodness families can be forever. xoxoxo

wendy said...

these times are really hard I know. Today is 3 months since Matt passed away. I have been teary all day.
I LOVE the LOVE on your arm....and more importantly the LOVE you hold in your heart for your sister.
I bet she is smiling and thinking "nice art work sis".

Cynthia said...

I am so sorry for the loss of your sister! I am from a family of 5 very tight knit sisters and I cannot imagine losing one of them. My heart goes out to you- there is nothing in this world quite as precious as the bonds of sisters. I have no doubt she is greatly missed and pleased to be remembered and honored.

the fowlers said...

what a year it has been.
i remember talking to grandma after ellie was born and just aching. i was telling her about my beautiful new daughter and suddenly i could understand the way she must have felt, losing her very first baby girl. it still makes me cry.

love you! and love pam, always.

Wendy said...

Shanna, I love you and your beautiful family. The Lord loves you and knows the pain of your loss of your sweet Pam and your beloved Dad. All things are for a purpose. You are strong and I admire and love you. You and Ty are awesome parents and great people. May he comfort you during hard days.

Bonnie the Boss said...

Hugs Shanna dear. I hope your heart is lightened today.

Barbaloot said...

What a hard day. Hope you are okay.

Teachinfourth said...

I so know what you mean with this...

Thinking good thoughts and sending these your general direction.

Amander said...

Love, love TWLOHA. I recently became associated with them through Hopeline. Such a powerful and emotional organization.

Cheeseboy said...

So sorry for your pain. Sending best Cheeseboy best wishes.

Missy said...

I am so sorry for you! I will say a prayer for you...

Monica said...

I hope you find a moment of peace on what must be a very difficult day.

M-Cat said...

I love the LOVE on your arm and hope that your heart heals at least some..... : )