Wednesday, June 2, 2010

If you don't have something funny to say...

then don't say anything at all.

That's kind of the way my mind has been rolling this last little while.

The brain has been full of stuff. Just not necessarily light hearted, fun filled, smiley faced stuff.

I went to the CBC. That's not to say that the CBC wasn't fun filled and full of smiley faces! The conference itself was really great and so were the ladies. Unfortunately my hormones were not that great. I seriously dislike hormones.

Hate.

Loathe.

Despise.

Would be a more appropriate words for the feelings that I have for the hormonal fluctuations that seemed to be in control of my body and emotions that weekend.

Normally when I get like that I can kind of fake my way through and everything is good. This time around? Not so much. We are talking sitting in a bathroom stall crying hormonally.

I almost left the CBC social on Friday night and just went to a movie by myself. Thankfully, Amber and DeNae came to my rescue and forced me inside. Then I got the best hug and greeting ever from Annie. (Seriously, she gives the best hugs.) I'm afraid I didn't reciprocate it in the best way because of the H. word. I'm sure I came off as stand offish and boring.

I sat with Amber, Kristina, Veronica and Sherrie and felt like, as Sam from iCarly would say, a total nub.

(Does it make me a nub that I referenced iCarly? I not so secretly love that show.)

I even got chap stick from Jessica at Bern This! Not that that makes me special or anything because she gave out chap stick to pretty much everyone. And still I felt like a nub.

I saw Wonder Woman and Rachel as I left early. (At least I believe it was Rachel. The state of mind I was in as spoke with them left a lot to be desired.) I said a quick hello and goodbye to Jessica from Duck, Duck, Cow and Jo and a group of other ladies as they sat out in the hallway chatting and I fled the scene.

What was wrong with me?? Gah!

Saturday the hormones were a little bit more manageable. Thanks again to Amber for letting me be her shadow. The classes I attended were good. I still felt totally off of my game.

Some of the highlights from Saturday were.
  • Listening to Matt Townsend. I am SO signing up for one of his date nights. Oh yes I am. He was fabulous! I was in tears about the puffy shorts.
  • Sitting next to The Mormon Therapist and getting her card. I'm pretty messed up and so is my family. I can use all the help I can get.
  • Having Jessica from Bern This reenact her flight into Salt Lake complete with the bear hug that she was giving to the lady in her seat next to her. It was awesome.
  • Getting to ride in Kristina's car to go and get some lunch.
  • Then having Crash think that I was actually TAMN. BAAAAAAAA! I hope this case of mistaken identity doesn't anger TAMN because I'm all tub-o-lardy and she's well... not. That and I don't dress my kids identical nor have a husband in law/medical/dental school. May Crash and I avoid the wrath of TAMN.
  • Getting to drive Annie and Crash in my car. (They have no idea how close they came to being kidnapped.)
  • Getting to have dinner with Annie, Kristina, DeNae, Amber, Annette and Crash. I may or may not have been pinching myself all through dinner. And they may now be well aware of my drinking problem. I had about 6 Cokes.
  • Sitting next to Crash while listening to Courtney Kendrick speak. Crash and Courtney are pretty much on opposite ends of the spectrum when it comes to writing styles but I adore them both so much. There may or may not have been more self pinching involved during this part of the CBC.
  • Finally figuring out where I knew Judi from! She's a facebook friend but I've never met her or visited her blog! I finally figured this out just before I left the conference and was able to go up and say hi. She was one of the great volunteers that helped put the CBC together.
  • Getting to give Motherboard a big hug and tell her what a fabulous job she (and everyone who helped put the conference together) did.
  • Meeting, briefly (and possibly crying in front of them) Mommy J and Inkmom who flew all the way in from North Carolina!
  • Watching Amber and DeNae interact as sisters. It was bitter sweet because of the loss of my older sister just a few months ago but it really and truly was wonderful seeing them together and being able to spend time with them. Thanks, ladies, for letting me have a glimpse into your world.
Wow that was kind of long. Wrap it up Shanna.

Okay.

CBC was great. Hormones? Not so much.

The end.

13 comments:

Kristina P. said...

I don't think anyone was even the wiser! You seemed to be very comfortable. You and TAMN. ;)

Amander said...

Sounds like you had a great time! Glad you got to meet so many bloggy buds.

bernthis said...

It was so great to meet you and I'm glad I could put a smile on your face. Let me say that I get it with the whole hormone thing. I can get pretty sad when I'm ovulating and it's hard to shake but making a list of things that are positive is a great start in heading back in the direction of happy.

xo

J

Funky Kim said...

Now I must go read some more blogs and see which ones to add to my already huge reader!

The Kooky Queen--Rachel said...

Seriously SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO jealous you went to the CBC! I wanted to go so bad! Sounds like it was awesome! And BOO to hormones!

Wonder Woman said...

I'm glad I got to see you, if only for a second. We'll do better next time.

Mary said...

So glad you had a great time, I'm totally jealous you got to go. And hormomes really do suck!

Sher said...

If you were feeling hormonal, you were really good at hiding it. When I'm hormonal, the whole worlds knows about it.

I was thinking about going to a movie too, we should've gone together!

It was great to see you, you are beautiful!

veronica said...

It was so great to see you Shanna. I'm sorry you were in a funk. You were kinda quiet, but then again, it was a pretty loud room!
Hope to see you again soon.

wendy said...

I totally understand the whole hormone thing. I am enjoying (not, not, not) menopause. It can be a struggle.
BUT it sounds like you had a great time!!!!!!!!!!! and that is cool

M-Cat said...

i get the "out of balance" thing too.

What scares me is because of my blood clot a couple of years ago, I have been told I will never be able to take hormones EVER. What will menopause be like? I cringe even thinking about it.

AS Amber said...

Ohhhhh Shanna!!! I'm so glad I read this post! You're such a sweetheart! It was so much fun playing with you that weekend! I'm sorry you were feeling kucka but I'm so glad you came in for the social anyway.

You're so much fun! I'm so glad I found you! We for sure have to play at the pool...if this d%*n rain ever stops!!!!!

Love you!

DeNae said...

Shanna! Amber texted me today and said, "You have to go read Shanna's post. She says some really nice things."

Well you certainly did. I adored getting to spend time with you. I didn't notice the hormone thing at all. You can hang with Amber and me any time you want! (Isn't Amber awesome??)

And I wanted to say, too, that I really admire how supportive you've been of your sister and BIL. That situation could be difficult, and your kindness and acceptance must surely be helping everyone feel a little more at ease with everything.

You really are a treasure.