Thursday, March 17, 2011

Oh my son


"I'm a 16 year old who has autism. Who has the mind of an 18 year old, the mentality of a 15 year old and the heart of a 4 year old. A soft, tender heart."
This is what my oldest son said to me today. I never want to forget it. I think I've become hardened over the last little while.

Today when my son came to me, after I got overly angry over some small issue and wanted to talk to me about it, I felt a softening.

He is a amazing young man.

I make no apologies for saying that because he is.

He truly is one of the most special and amazing people that I have ever had the pleasure to meet....and I've been blessed to be his mother. He touches the lives of those around him in ways that I can't even begin to comprehend.

He's made and continues to make me a better mother.

At the end of our short conversation he asked if we could have a prayer together and he wanted me to give it. I asked him if there was anything specific that he would like me to pray for. He asked me if I would pray that I would be "slow to anger".

It was very humbling. And something very much needed.

I don't know what I did to deserve him but I'm sure glad he's mine.

I love that kid.

27 comments:

Kristina P. said...

This was lovely, Shanna.

Vanessa said...

Thanks for making me cry. I like that story :)

Julie said...

Wow. That was a powerful lesson. Thank you for sharing.

Anonymous said...

Thats awesome Shanna, I need to be slow to anger sometimes also. From Lisa Musser Nelson

stephanie said...

That brought me to tears, and I hope that you never do forget that experience. There is just to much we take for granted. So AMAZING!

tammy said...

Wow. I have tears too. Our children teach us so much. Maybe because they were the ones more recently in our Heavenly Father's presence.

Shauna said...

*waving hands in front of eyes*
:)

the fowlers said...

very, very special.
you are a perfect mom for him and he is a perfect son for you. you were made for each other. :)
love you both.

Funky Kim said...

Oh Shanna! What a great young man!

clan of the cave hair said...

what an incredibly beautiful moment shared between mother and son. THANK YOU for sharing.

sisterwendy said...

The best life lessons I've ever learned have the lessons my kids have taught me! I love your son, such a gentle soul xoxoxo

wendy said...

What a tender wonderful story. Gosh, just having him ask you to pray with him would bring me to tears...and then for him to have you pray that you become slower to anger....had me cracking up.
Our children sometimes have a "heart-line" to God that we don't sometimes.
great young man for sure!!

Madalyn said...

I love this story!

Erin said...

Wow. What a sweet moment in time between the two of you. :)

Cheeseboy said...

Aww. Having had autistic kids over the years in my class, I must say, they are ALWAYS the most lovable kids. Sounds like your son may be even more so.

M-Cat said...

Shanna,
Thank you for sharing that experience. It's funny that it is sometimes the small things that tend to humble us the most and remind us of what is important.

You are a lucky Mom indeed, but he is even a luckier young man to have you as his Mother.

Missy said...

Crying! What a special young man...

Jenny said...

Those moments are so special. I have experienced this with mine. I love how I am a better mom because of the autism.

tiburon said...

That got me teary eyed. what a sweetheart.

Jessica G. said...

What a good kid...raised by a good momma.
(And have you read "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time"? It's told from the perspective of a 15 year old autistic boy. One of my favorite books.)

Pedaling said...

a little glimpse into heaven.
that he would ask you two to pray together....that is, wow, just amazing.
wonderful. no apologies for a loving son. for a blessing!

Monica said...

What a sweet story. He reminds me of my step son who is equally sensitive and caring. Lucky you.

Rici said...

Goodness. This made me teary. I love it!

Amander said...

What an insightful young man. That is really a beautiful paragraph.

The Kooky Queen--Rachel said...

You got this post-partum, already weepy mess of a mom, MORE weepy!!!!! That was beautiful! Thanks for sharing!!!

Lara said...

Wow. That was amazing. And so humbling because I think we all learn so much from our children. He is an amazing kid for sure. And so are you!

Cynthia said...

That made me cry. He has touched MANY hearts with his sweet words. Thanks for sharing them so the rest of us could benefit from his uncanny wisdom too!

You are a great Mom- THAT'S why you were given a son with such amazing potential. You have every reason to be deeply proud of the caliber of young man that he is.