I have a question for you. And no it's not just to get comments. It's something that I genuinely want to know.
It has to do with addiction. The three of you who are regular readers have probably figured out that I deal with addicts in my life.
And if you have any experience with this you know how horrible addiction is.
I also know that, at least in my family, it's not openly talked about very often. If it is I often feel like I'm the one who is pushing to talk about it. And when we do talk that's all it seems to be is talk. And that talk just goes around in circles. Never ending, helpless circles.
I feel really, really alone in this situation. I actually went and spoke with a friend who I knew had a similar experience to mine and it was such an incredible relief to know that I am not alone in my feelings, my reactions, in my pain and anger.
But I guess I need more. More advice. More validation. More understanding.
So the question I pose to you is this,
Have you ever had someone you loved dearly who has struggled with addiction?
Have you, yourself, ever struggled with addiction? Of any kind. Addiction is addiction.
In fact I have taken a good hard look at myself (because I believe I carry an addictive gene in my makeup) and I guess my "drug of choice" is soda, sugar and food in general. I'm not perfect.
In fact I feel like a complete hypocrite most days.
Fortunately or Unfortunately however you choose to look at it I am able to function with my addiction. Does that make it better or worse?
The addiction that is tearing into my family has to do with drugs.
Meth, prescription pain killers, Heroine and possibly other shtuff.
I am looking into going to Al-Anon meetings to get more help. (Maybe I should look into some OA meetings as well.)
I'm going to make it so that you can post anonymously if you wish because I know how hard it is to talk publicly about stuff like this. Or you can email me if you want. My email is in my profile.
There you have it.
Sorry to be so abrupt. Hope your neck isn't hurting too badly.